So What Does It All Mean?

Last night nanaginip ako ng medyo 'di maganda.

Magulo.

Halu-halo ang mga pangyayari.

It was so negative, it involved death, sickness and darkness.

Three of my fears.

When I woke up around 7am I received an sms from mommy reminding to take extra care these days. She said nanaginip daw siya ng 'di maganda.

Hmmm..

I asked myself, could it be na magkapareho ang aming panaginip?

Anyway, she knows better than I do and wala naman siguro masama if sundin ko ang advice nya.

Prone pa naman ako sa mga 'kampon ni satanas'. Been there and certainly ayoko nang maging biktima pa nila.

Kung ano man yung ibig sabihin ng aming panaginip, it actually reminded me na 'wag maging lenient and confident towards security dito sa amin.

Mahirap na ang panahon ngayon.

One more thing, that dream reminded me that this day is my uncle's death anniversary.

He died of prostate cancer in the 90's.

He was my mother's eldest brother. When Lolo died, he became the family's patriarch.

He was such a strong man. He never got married because he was too busy working for his siblings and my grandmother.

He lived with us when Daddy was out of the country.

I remember when he comes home from work (as a carpenter) in Marbel (South Cotabato), he would bring dalag or hito. He would then ask us to gather in the dirty kitchen and watch him kung papano ito ihanda. He would cook this with coconut milk and gabi.

It was always a feast then. Until he retired from his work due to his illness.

My most unforgettable moment with him though was when we travelled pauwi ng Iloilo. I sat in his lap during the bus trip. I think it was my first long distance trip and my stomach was not cooperating. I had diarrhea.

In short, tumae ako while sitting in his lap and his pants had shit. Lol

Gross noh?

I just wish Papa Oto is happy wherever he is now.

I hope he is happy seeing his nephew who grew up to become a pretty fierce niece.