Over Boxers and Undies

Denial.

Ito yung feeling na nag-linger between the three of us over the weekend. Iba't ibang level ng denial.

Denial over weight.
Denial over reality.
Denial over lost love.
Denial over truth.
Denial over acceptance.

Denial queens.

Mahirap ang ganitong sitwasyon. Naiipit ka over something make-believe. I know it's not healthy but maybe it's just our way of keeping our sanity.

How ironic.

Anyway, we're ok now. We talked about a lot of things in our lives over the weekend.

Masaya kasi we stayed in one room for 24hours in our pyjamas and boxers. Nanuod lang ng tv, natulog, nagtetext, nagbabasa, nagchismis, walang ligo. Lol.

Minsan hindi na kailangang maging melodramatic over serious things, as long as you know you have friends that listen, support and stand by your side konting bonding lang, tawanan and things are ok na.

Ganyan naman kami palagi. Kahit medyo seryoso na ay nagagawa pa rin naming maging mababaw.

Gifted yata kami sa pagiging mababaw. Hihi

And yes, it was therapeutic for us because we've pointed out the facts na kelangan bigyan namin ng pansin. Hindi na kami denial ngayon. Konti na lang.

Bad

Nalulunod na ako.

So many bad things are happening in our country lately. Ayoko nang i-enumerate at nakaka-depress talaga.

Pilit ko nang iniiwasan nang manuod ng news programs sa tv, pati pagbabasa ng newspapers ay chosen na lang ang sections na binibigyan ko ng pansin.

I am denying myself of too much bad news because feel ko baka hindi kayanin ng aking murang katawan (chos!) ang ganitong impormasyon at maloka ako sa sobrang ka-negahan.

On a personal note, my 2 bestfriends are experiencing love crisis. They seek advice from me and I am becoming some kinda shock absorber. I can be their eyes and ears for now. Alam naman natin ang mga bading kapag inlab, minsan ay nagiging bobo, bulag at bingi. Both of them ngayon ay nasa denial stage. Lol.

I, on the other hand has not been home for almost three weeks now. So far, so good. I have not received an sms from my mother. Maybe she's fine with me not coming home.

Oh well, let's just wait and see.

Buti na lang at may blog akong nagiging outlet ng aking feelings, friends na very supportive at mga ate na kunsintidora. Lol.

On a more serious note, let us pray for the lives lost in that tragic ship and the recent typhoon.

May they rest in peace.

Mugen Tag

Since Joms has tagged me (and I thank him for that, hihi), I am obliged and willing to post this entry about the 6 Weird Facts/Things About Me. Actually, medyo challenging ito kasi I don't find myself weird (etchos!) because I honestly think that no such thing exist (another etchos!). I just consider myself unique, like everyone else (pangatlong chos!).

Anyway highway, eto nga pala ang rules ng tag na ito. Sundin po natin at baka isumpa tayo ni Pokwang. Ok? Go!

Rules

1. This game starts with 6 weird things about you.
2. People who got tagged need to write a blog entry of their own 6 weird things.
3. They should state this rule clearly as well.
4. At the end of the list, tag 6 people.
5. Don't forget to inform each newly-tagged person by posting a comment on his own blog.

Sooooooo, without further chiklet, here are the 6 Weird Things About Me.
(Disclaimer: weird na ito para sa akin, if you find it normal then good for you. Weird ka rin. lol)

Numero Uno: Once a week, I always find time to treat myself to a movie rewind. It feels so good kasi to watch a favorite movie (not necessarily good) and alam mo na ang susunod na mangyayari. Sometimes I recite the lines kasabay ng dialog ng actors. lol. Kahit na 48 million times ko na itong napapanuod it still makes me laugh, cry, smile or whatever depending on what the movie is. These movies usually are; Mean Girls, The Devil Wears Prada, X-Men 1 2 3, Spiderman 1 2 3, Kill Bill Vols. 1 and 2, A Walk To Remember, To Wong Foo Thanks For Everything Julie Newmar to name a few.

Numero Dos: Whenever I write something in my blog using a desktop or laptop, before publishing it I always view/check it on my cellphone first before finally publishing it just to make sure that my latest entry looks good on a mobile view too. hihihi

Numero Tres: Sometimes when eating breakfast and I crave for a soup pero walang mailuto sa kusina, nagtitimpla ako ng kape at yun ang ginagawa kong sabaw sa kanin. =P

Numero Cuatro: I find Kuya Kim Atienza hot and sexier than Brad Pitt. hihi

Numero Cinco: I don't wear loose shirts when sleeping. I opt for something masikip, a white tight shirt. I don't know why pero hindi ako makagalaw kapag maluwag ang suot ko.

Numero Sais: When I walk, I oftentimes play music in my head and start to strut like I am on a runway. Teka nga, who doesn't ba? Kung bading ka eh usually yun naman talaga ang ginagawa di ba? Lalo na sa hallways. Sabi nga ni Tyra Banks "Every hallway is a runway". hihihi. Weird na yun para sa mga normal. lol

So that's it. 6 Weird Things About Me.

Now, as the rules say, kelangan kong i-tag ang anim sa aking mga friends dito. I am tagging the following people:

-JM
-Green Boi
-Mrs. J
-Dabo
-Odin
-Mode Junkie

That's all. hihi

Satisfied, Not Spoiled

Catatonia.

Parang ganun ang naramdaman ko after reading King's text.

KC and I were silent for a few minutes pero parang it seemed like 48years.

Tumunog ulet ang cellphone ko. It's from King.

'Mel, san na kau banda? bukas pa uwi ko sa marawi. nandito kasi kami sa beach, punta na lng kau d2'.

'Saan yan?' reply ko.

'Dito lang sa Iligan, madadaanan nyo im sure'. aniya.

OMG!
Bwahaha! It's like the angels were singing to us. Hallelujer!

Oh di ba, kaya pala wala siya sa Marawi dahil nasa Iligan lang pala siya. God is so good, hindi na Niya kami papagurin sa pagpunta sa malayo.

Yung outing na sinasabi ni King sa akin days ago ay sa Iligan pala gaganapin. Buti na lang. Sayang nga lang at wala kaming photo op ni KC sa Marawi. Maganda pa naman daw doon. Parang Baguio sa lamig.

Anyway, King and his friends are staying overnight doon sa nasabing beach. It's 10 minutes from the city proper daw.

I texted back na sasaglit muna kami sa MSU-IIT (Iligan Institute of Technology) para daanan ang pinsan ni KC na si Lyn at pupuntahan namin yung guy na imi-meet ni KC, si Lyndon.

He works part-time pala sa Jollibee kaya madali kaming nakapag-takeout ng dadalhin sa beach. Lyndon is kinda cute but he's not my bestfriend's type.
Anyway, we said Hi, he said Hello. hihi
Nagkuwentuhan ng konti, kamustahan, the works. I know hindi interesado si KC sa kanya. At least natupad namin ang isa sa aming purpose sa pagpunta doon.

After taking our orders ay nagpaalam na kami kay Lyn and Lyndon.
Sumakay ulet kami ng taxi papunta na doon sa beach.
I texted King na salubungin kami sa labas at ilatag na ang fuchsia carpet. Hihi.
It was almost midnight when we reached the beach, King was there waiting. He was topless. Lol. He hugged us both and welcomed us.

Pagpasok namin sa beach ay sinalubong kami ng mga friends nya. They were very warm. They introduced themselves to us. I remember Honey, Charles, Geisha, Jing, June, Noaim, Adam, Sparrow, etc. lol

Hinanda nila yung dala naming chickenjoy buckets at pati na yung mga baon nila. No pork kasi mga muslim silang lahat. We ate na rin kasi gutom na gutom na kami ni KC. Anyhoo, nothing extraordinary happened. It was just a normal getting to know thing na may konting inuman. King and I sat together. Kuwentuhan, kamustahan sa byahe. Alcohol was overflowing. Lol. Yung iba ay nag nightswimming.

In fairness, King and his friends were so down to earth. They treated us like they've known us for a long time. With red horse, chicken barbecue and kinilaw on the table, we talked about everything. School, politics, sex, music, love, etc. hanggang mag umaga! We lost track of time 'til we realised the sun was coming out. I managed to get a few shots using my cellphone's camera. The beach isn't that spectacular, anyway the view that matters to me most is just this one. hihi


After freshening up, KC and I decided to leave na kasi we have things to buy pa sa CDO and kelangan namin makaalis by lunchtime. KC has a 4am shift pa pagka-Lunes.

Nag picture-taking muna kami before leaving the place. Nauna nang umuwi yung iba pabalik sa Marawi. King accompanied us pabalik sa city proper. Here are some photos from my cellphone. Pasensya na at lasing ang kumuha. lol




Nagbreakfast muna kami sa Chowking kasama ulet si Lyn and Lyndon before nila kami sinamahan papuntang bus terminal.

I'm kinda sad leaving the place. We were just there for 10hours yata. Wala na kaming oras para mag chasing waterfalls (Iligan is home to Tinago and Ma.Cristina Falls) and explore its nightlife.

Anyway, there's always a next time. Kelangan hindi na Darna-darna ang pag-desisyon.

We plan to go back and eventually marating namin ang Marawi. We have enough reasons why we need to go back. Our friends.

Meanwhile, KC and I never talked to each other on our way back home.

We were too busy snoring.

Spoiled, Satisfied -Ang Karugtong

'Hi. I'm Rex. Can I have your number?'

Ito yung linyang halos ikahimatay ko. Buti na lang at na-train akong mabuti sa workshop ko sa Miss Universe about grace under pressure. Kahit na kinilig ako at nanghihina ang aking mga tuhod, I still managed to blurt out the appropriate answers.

'I'm Mel, and my number is 0919xxxxxxx', sabi ko.

'Ok, got it. Sa kasama mo, anong number niya?' aniya.

Bakit pa, am I not enough for you? Gusto kong isagot. Lol. Instead, binigay ko rin ang number ni KC na naghihintay na sa loob ng taxi.

'Puede na ba kaming umalis Rex?' tanong ko.

'Oo, puede na. Itetext kita ha?' sagot niya.

'Ok'. Simpleng sagot ko pero gusto kong sabihin 'I can't wait.' hihi.

'Thank you sa assistance.' pagpapaalam ko before boarding the taxi.

'Ingat kayo!' pahabol na sagot nya.

Si KC nakangisi lang sa loob ng taxi. Hinila kunwari ang mahaba kong hair.

Anyway, off we go na. It was already past 10pm at kelangan pa namin daanan ang ilang barangay na sakop ng Misamis Oriental (I think) bako makarating sa Iligan City. Sa estimate ko ay past 11pm na kami makakarating doon.

Medyo kumakalam na c tommy lee jones. Huling meal namin was just Kitkat and Chips Ahoy. Plano namin ay dumaan sa Jollibee-Iligan para mag take-out na lang at naghihintay na rin doon ang pinsan ni KC kasama yung guy na imi-meet nya.

From Iligan ay babyahe pa ulet ng 30-45 minutes to our final destination Marawi City.

Habang nasa daan ay text ng text si KC. Kinuha ko na rin ang cellphone ko para itext si King. Kunwari ay nagtatanong ako ng directions patungo sa kanila at may plano kaming pumunta next month. Buti na lang at gising pa siya at sinagot naman ang mga tanong ko.

Hindi ko na matiis kaya sinabi ko na rin na we're actually on our way to Iligan City.

Akala nya I was joking kaya I told him na nasa El Salvador (sakop ng Misamis Oriental) na kami.

Nabigla siya. I don't know if it's a shock or a surprise.

Mas nabigla din ako sa sinagot nya.

Wala daw siya sa bahay nila.
Wala siya sa Marawi.

In short, wala kaming madadatnan sa Marawi.
Nanlamig ako. Surprised. Not in a good way.

I think I went pale.

I told KC.
Parang gusto nya akong sakalin.

-to be continued-
Promise, trilogy lang ito. Lol

Spoiled, Satisfied

Marawi City.

An islamic city in Mindanao.
Home of the Mindanao State University.
The home of King.
My special friend. Hihi

Last Saturday noon, my bestfriend KC and I were exchanging sms. I told him about our friend King who's inviting me for a weekend 'getaway' sa hometown nila. KC on the other hand mentioned that he has a cousin in Iligan City who has a guy friend at baka interesado daw siya. Since the 2 guys on our minds were practically on thesame side of the map lang we decided na pumunta doon and started our long journey.

Our mission: for KC to meet that 'guy' his cousin was talking about and I, to surprise King in Marawi.

Ganun lang. Parang kaming mga baliw. Lol.

Edz who is already back at school taking up his masters in Public Administration can't join us. Walang Dreamgirls na mangyayari. It's just the two of us, Jessica and Ashlee Simpson on tour. Hihi.

Sumaglit muna kami sa isang tindahan para bumili ng makakain sa byahe. Chips Ahoy, Kitkat, Nova, C2, bottled water.
We boarded the bus and started our journey to stardom. Chos!

We arrived at the city of golden friendship, Cagayan de Oro, very late na, 10pm. I think. From there ay kelangan pa namin sumakay ulet ng bus papuntang Iligan City, another 1 1/2 hour trip.
Pagod na kami. As in puppy-tired. We're not even talking. Our friendship is hanging by a thread. Etchos!
We're getting impatient na waiting for a bus to our next destination we decided to take a taxi na lang instead. So off we go to a police outpost para magtanong ng instructions.

Ang hirap talaga maglakad in our gowns, KC in Cavalli and I in Prada. Etchos!

'Good evening officers!' panimulang bati ni KC.
Medyo nagulat ako sa aking bestfriend kasi medyo flirty ang dating ng bati. Sinuot ko ang aking eyeglass. Yun pala ay may mga cutie sa men in uniform.

Gosh!
Medyo nagulat din yung mga pulis. Nagulat sa biglang pagdating ng dalawang bakla at may suot na silver headband ang isa kahit kalbo (ako yun). Lol.

Very accomodating naman yung mga pulis. Pinalibutan nila (i think anim sila) kami habang ini-isa isang sagutin ang aming mga tanong.
After a few minutes of question and answer portion, nag suggest yung isang pulis na siya na ang bahala sa taxi na aming sasakyan. Pumara siya ng isa at kinausap ang driver kung puedeng ihatid ang dalawang dalagita (kami yun, lol) sa Iligan City. Pumayag naman ang driver na meter lang ang gamitin dahil doon din daw ang direction nya.

Anyway, before boarding the taxi, I turned around to thank the rest of the policemen.
Nagulat ako when one of the cutie winked.
Gusto ko nang magpaiwan. Lol.
Lumapit siya sa taxi, kinuha ang cellphone from his pocket at nagsalita:

'Hi, I'm Rex. Can I have your number?'

Hinimatay yata ako. Lol

-to be continued-

Darna!

My super duper bestfriend KC and I are off to somewhere exotic and probably 'unsafe'.

I don't know.

Kaninang tanghali lang namin napag-pasyahang ituloy. We're on transit now. Singbilis ng sigaw ni Darna ang aming desisyon. I'm posting this entry thru my mobile phone. Lol

Destination: Secret.

Wish Ko Lang

Ito naman ang Top 5 Reasons ng bestfriends ko why they still want to live. hihi


EDZ Says:

1. because Li and I haven't reached a year of staying together.

2. I still want to meet Mariah Carey and Jesse Bradford.

3. I want to tour the world.

4. I want to have my own car.

5. Gusto ko pang pumayat. lol


UNIQUE Says:

1. World tour

2. Gusto ko pang maging school principal.

3. Gusto ko pa ng maraming lalake.

4. I want more bonding time with my bestfriends.
5. I want a house and lot and a car of my own.


KC Says:

1. Pay all my debts.

2. To be filthy rich.

3. To find my life partner.

4. To go to Paris.

5. To sleep with all my crushes.

That's all.

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Meanwhile, tomorrow is Saturday. May session ako with my two 'other' friends.



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See you and Happy Weekend!

Shallow

My Top Ten Reasons Why I Still Want To Live
(Mababaw Version)

10. dahil hindi ko pa nasubukan ang mag nail polish ng kulay pula, as in flaming red. palagi na lang black, white or neutral.

9. dahil wala pa akong Monique Lhuillier barbie.

8. dahil nag-iipon pa ako para makabili ng gladiator heels tulad ng sinuot ni SJP sa SATC. nananawagan po ako sa Dior. hihi

7. dahil gusto ko pang pumunta sa Batanes kahit weekend lang.

6. dahil wala pa akong sariling car. Will do prostituting for a mini-cooper. bwahaha!

5. dahil gusto ko pang ma-meet ang childhood crush kong si Aga Muhlach. kung close kayo ni Papa Aga, please e-mail me. hihi

4. dahil hindi pa ako nakakapanuod ng Wowowee live bilang audience at sumali sa Hip Hip Hooray. jologs na kung jologs. lol

3. dahil hindi pa rin kami matuloy-tuloy sa Bora na kumpleto ang buong tropa.

2. dahil hindi pa naibabalik ang ideal weight kong 90lbs. at 23-inch waistline.

1. dahil wala pa akong Hermes bag. wala kasi sa ukay-ukay. lol

The Reason

I've received a couple of emails, a few sms and a phone call from my ate regarding my blog entry a few days ago.

I just want to straighten the facts for the sake of the concerned (kung meron man). Hihi

Yes, I don't have plans of going home for the next few (or more) days.

No, hindi ako naglayas. Ayoko lang umuwi sa bahay ng parents ko.

No, it's not about my being gay. Matagal na akong na-accept ng family ko at ng PAMET. hihi

No, my sister does not blog.

Yes, I'm in good terms with my father and siblings.

No, I'm not seventeen but I think like one.

No, hindi ako yung pinanawagan ng ate nya para umuwi na dahil natagpuan ng nanay nya na may katalik na lalake din kaya naglayas.

And finally Yes, uuwi din ako soon because I still care for my mother. May konting tampo lang ako sa kanya. Mas ok na hindi kami magkita. I don't want to hate her.

That's all. Hihi

Only words

'If your back is bent, only then will somebody climb on it. So stand up straight and nobody will ever climb on your back. That's all.'


-Manpreet Brar

Solitude

I just left home.

I'm not coming back.

Not this weekend.

Not next weekend.

Maybe not this month.

Or next month.

Or in a few months.

I don't know.

My sister knows why.

She'll understand.

Daddy will understand.

XOXO

Ang Ganda!

I got this from an sms sent by my friend Edz. I'm sure yung iba dyan nakatanggap na nito but for the benefit of the others I'm posting this as a blog entry.

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PANTENE

Ruffa Gutierrez

PALMOLIVE

KC Concepcion

SUNSILK

Marian Rivera

HEAD AND SHOULDERS

Angel Locsin

REJOICE

Kim Chiu

CLEAR

Piolo Pascual

Ang bruha! Di talaga pahuhuli! lol

Naku, baka magalit si Ate Lyka. Maka-piolo pa naman yun. hihi

Leche Plan

The following are excerpts from our sms exchange last night:
(translated na po ito)

Mel: haaay, brownout na naman dito! ka-inez!

KC: ay, pobre ang electric company dyan..

Unic: i think epekto lang yan ng rice shortage.

Edz: ha? Paki konek nga.

Unic: dahil kinulang sa kanin ang staff ng transco. bwahaha

Mel: mahal na talaga ang bigas, P48 dito.

Edz: P46 sa amin.

Unic: Dito sa Bohol P35 lang.

KC: eh kasi naman saging lang ang kinakain nyo. Hello? Tarsier! bwahaha

Unic: snob mode

KC: ang pikon ay laging patay. Lol

Mel: change topic nga. what time do we meet on Saturday?

Edz: i can't join you on Saturday. Punta kami Camiguin.

KC: na naman?

Unic: with whom? Bf?

Edz: no, Gf.

Mel: ganun? hmft! Fly na lang ako sa Malawi, este Marawi pala.

KC: ay, chaka. puntahan ko na lang si Aga. He's gonna 'Hit Me Baby One More Time'. lol

Unic: kayo na lang, may pasok na ako sa Sabado. hmft!


As of presstime ay pending pa ang plano ng mga bakla.

Ate, Ano Ba?!

Malapit na ang June 12.

Independence Day ng Pilipinas.

Or so we thought.

Dati, holiday dito sa atin tuwing June 12 kasi nga araw ito ng kalayaan. If my memory serves me right this would be the 110th anniversary.

Ngayong taon na ito however ay hindi na papatak sa June 12 ang holiday kundi sa June 9. Sabi ni Ate Glo, parte daw ito ng kanyang holiday economics. Ewan ko sa kanya, simula nang maupo siya bilang pangulo ay hindi ko ma-feel ang epekto ng 'holiday economics'. Lalo na ngayon at halos P50 na ang bigas at P60 na ang gasolina.

Baka tusukin ko pa mata nya. Lol.

I don't know but for me, pakialaman na nya ang lahat ng holiday except Independence Day. Kung walang independence na nangyari 110 years ago makakaupo kaya siya ngayon sa palasyo? Bruhang pandak. Hihi

Siguro nga, hindi rin nya ma-feel ang significance ng Independence Day kasi feel nya na hindi pa rin ganap na malaya ang ating bansa.

We're not free from corruption, tyranny, poverty, etc. etc.

Huwag na lang tayong magtaka kung sa mga susunod na araw ay ang Pasko sa Pinas ay sa July na. Siguro pati birthday natin siya na ang magde-decide kung kelan. Hihi

Getting Hard

I got hard kagabi.

Literally.

I'm not talking about erection. Hihi

Last night, habang nakahiga listening to Chris Botti and exchanging sms with the gurls, biglang nag brownout at nawala ang signal ng smart. Chaka Khan! Tinamad akong bumangon para kumuha ng lampara o kandila, I decided na pumikit na lang. Siguro sa sobrang pagod sa byahe I dozed off. It was just 7pm. I woke up in the middle of the night pero madilim pa rin. I tried to move to get my cellphone but I felt pain in my upper abdomen. Nakatagilid akong nakahiga and whenever I make a move there's pain. Hindi na lang ako gumalaw. I just frozed. Screaming would be useless since I was all alone in the house. Feeling helpless, I just prayed to Him and to my guardian angel, closed my eyes and went back to sleep.

Kanina, I woke up at 5am feeling ok like nothing serious happened.

Today I'm getting myself checked at baka kung ano na yung nangyari sa akin. Mas mabuti na ang maagap. Sa doctor muna ako makikipag-appointment at marami pa akong gustong gawin dito sa Earth. Ayoko munang ma-meet ang tatay ni Simon Cowell.

Si Satan Cowell.

Coloring

Sa mundo nating makulay, may kasiyahan at kalungkutan.
May variety ang life.
Life itself can be identified with different colors. May representation ang bawat aspeto at klase.
Kung gaano kadami ang facets ng buhay at kung gaano mo ilarawan ang bawat isa ay puede mo itong bigyang kulay.

Sadness can be blue.
Black may be death.
Virginity is white.
Being girl is pink.
Being gay can be magenta.
Love can be orange.
Earth is green.
Comfort is purple.
Crime is tangerine.
Sickness can be gray.
Happiness is a sunny yellow.

And so on, and on and on....



Pero ang pinakamakulay sa lahat ng color sa color wheel ng buhay ay yung sinabi ni Carrie sa Sex And The City movie.
Masaya ang 'color' na yun.
For me, I like it Red Hot. Tulad ng nangyari kagabi. Masaya akong nakipag-coloring. Hihi